The Real Dan Corby

Starting a new chapter in my life and the way I see it it’s the 4th. This is a kind of diary.

Started a new blog about my new life.

Go Deeper Than Oceans

We were caught in the current
Letting it drag us out
One day we collide
And set our own course

Your color and the way you move
Caught my eye and held it’s gaze
I felt all the joy I’ve been searching for
Set free the tears I’ve been holding back

We’ve been floating near the surface waiting
Now let’s dive deeper and deeper
Into the great unknown we’ll venture
To find a new home and joyous wonder

So come now
We’ll go down
Deeper than oceans
We’ll go deeper than oceans

I’ve been clawing my way to the top with agonizing breath and stride
Hiding from the truth of it all and screaming from within
I feel it all, since birth I feel it all deeper than oceans
From peaks of mountain tops I feel the shifting of plates

Darling you shake free the tears
Set me free from fears
No more need to hide
No more need for pride

No sense of shame
No need for same
We are deeply feeling
You are deeply freeing

Drawing inspiration from one another
Dancing on the graves of our fears
Climbing the steepest mountain peaks
Letting loose the lions roar of old souls set free

So come now
We’ll go down
Deeper than oceans
We’ll go deeper than oceans

We Came In a Rush

You’re using up my time
Eating up my mind
I never thought I’d find
A love like yours

We came in a rush
We’ll clear away the brush
Each of us a lush
Wounded and healing

Trembling with fear// I bravely push through
With my shattered past// I wasn’t expecting you

Running for the mountain
Crisp air on our new skin
We choose where we begin
Adventure and passion

We’ll run for the mountain
Crisp air on our new skin
I’ll strum a melody
And you’ll dance, your body free

Trembling with fear// we bravely push through
Two shattered pasts// come together anew

We’re all better now

You’re moving on
Doing crazy shit we never would’ve done
I’ve moved on too
Onto something better, a brighter sun

You’ve got a twisted view
Something I could never get used to
I fought hard for you
But I’m glad I’ve got someone new

We’re all better now
No need to wonder how

All that I feel

I want to whisper sweet little nothings
To my sweet little something
I just need to find
What that something is

You’re beautiful that’s for sure
And we’d paint a perfect picture
I hope it is real
All that I feel

Let’s stay up all night
And sleep away the day
Let’s do it all over again
Let this happen

We only have this moment
Our birth is an omen
I can predict the outcome
So let us wait for the sun

I hope it is real
All that I feel

Something Dear (Ryan’s Song)

I lost someone dear to me recently. This one is about our friendship and what the future looks like. I’ve endured a lot of heart ache lately but this loss is one that cuts to the bone. I’ll miss you buddy. “Buddy’s don’t shake hands…buddy’s gotta hug!”

We met when we were children
And you had high hopes for livin
You were the smartest kid I knew
And the funniest one too

We spent the nights drinking mixed drinks
Talking about bullshit and anything
We were fucking weird and it was just you and me
Of course it couldn’t last infinitely

You were wild
You were free
Heart of a child
Not like me

I was the wise one
And the quiet one
Always together
You were my brother (Couldn’t last forever)

I was weak but you’d lift me up
When you were lonely we’d share a cup
We were both missing something dear
We came together in mutual fear

I saw a darkness in your heart
It was the kind that would tear us apart
But I never stopped loving you
But to watch you destroy yourself I couldn’t do

You meant so much to me that I had to let you go
But I never really did these actions were just a show
I turned my back on you but I never turned my mind
You were always with me, this whole damn time

Now you’re gone and I cannot say goodbye
You’re the one that left this time as I look to the sky
But you’ll always be here with us as I look into his eyes
There’s so much beauty that you left behind

Keep moving, head down, eyes forward.

I’m glad I’m surrounded by motivated individuals. Some people just feel like your abandoning them when you’re busy doing your own thing. I’ll be there to motivate you and comfort you when you’re down. I would expect you to do the same but I have got to do my own thing too. Hard work, dedication, and a strong heart will get you places. Sometimes our paths will take us in different directions but that doesn’t downplay the love and care for the people in my life. Sorry to those who I can’t spend time with but maybe your mad because you can’t seem to gain the motivation for yourself. Just do it already, no one else is going to do it for you. Don’t blame it on your hard life. I’ve been going through some serious shit for the past few years and I’m not stopping. It’s the shit of life that should motivate you more to really work hard for what you are passionate about. Keep moving, head down, eyes forward.

Thank you to my true friends and their unconditional love. I’ll return the same, anytime. To those who are mad “Were you really my friends or did you just hang around me to make yourself feel better?”

*mic drop*

I haven’t posted in a while but here’s something.

Well life has been hard lately but that doesn’t mean I’ve stopped writing. Here is a few fragments of unfinished pieces.

__________________

I’m losing vision
Heart beats vaguely
Make an incision
Before it fails me

Call upon the healer
My loved ones to come
Stand by and eager
Comfort the drum

___________________

Caught in this deep ocean
Sometimes raging sometimes still
It’s greatness makes me feel
Trapped in it’s net of indecision

I step out across the plains
Until the ground gives way
Foolishly certain now uncertain
Where to begin? I keep searchin

______________________

You’re in it too deep
You can’t ever turn back
But if you try hard enough
You can start something new

It’s your choice what you do
And if I’m not what you choose
It’s okay if I lose
Just know I’ll always love you

Music…so much music!

The written word of those of the same situational or emotional cabal.

Human!

Puritanical guise
Livin under these lies
It’s all inherently evil (they say)
Pleasure and passion

(I am) Muffled and blinded
My heart is dying
Stifled imprisoned
My nature has risen

Crash!
Splash!
Color!
And feeling!

Bang!
Yell!
I am!
Human!

Breath….
Deeply thinking
Thoughtful and feeling
And lofty dreaming

I choose what I will
Close my eyes and breath my fill
Stretch my arms out
And when I finally relax…

Scream!
Shout!
Cry!
It all out!

Crash!
Splash!
Color!
And feeling!

Bang!
Yell!
I am!
Human!